i feel reborn in a strange way. i left something enormously important behind.
did something for myself. moved forward. haven't grasped how much i've been
held back bc i was immersed in this bubble of selflessness and constant giving,
strangely i don't regret a single thing. people, please, never spare on loving. never be
contempt with less than you deserve. don't try to fill out empty spaces. don't give yourself
to others that are unsure. in their bubble. that are trampling on the same circle of grass until
there's nothing to grow and nurture. this life gives me so much, and there are places where gratefulness will
meet you. warm hearts, smiles, space to grow. this angel had his halo loose,
and i wandered on. to continue loving and creating. there's so much art pouring out of me,
so much meaningful conversations with strangers and friends blossomed out of this
emptiness, that was actually hiding behind fullness. ripe and ready to burst like autumn fruit.
i laid on grass, staring to the moon with people, crazy fantasies, laughs, a childrens
smile away from our dreams. i said yes to being, and opportunities said yes to me.
kind words found their way back
to me. reconnecting with people in the most profound way. my chest isn't hurting anymore,
my hollow ghost went full. i have goals, aspirations, directions, strength. it breaks your jaw
when you realize that all you have loved, you loved alone, but i'll continue to love
mercilessy, messy, truthfully. and in the dumb, endearing way i ususally do. we're all
making it guys. we're all doing ok.
my fire came back, flames licking high. i'm able to do things, i will do those things,
i'll get by, and i'll fgure things out,
with a warmth in my heart that i never felt before until yet.
don't take drugs kids
i think of you with tender thoughts
pen and paper evenings are what's needed
meeting friends, meeting strangers, meeting bugs
ICH BIN BEREIT FÜR SHENANIGANS ICH BIN BEREIT WEITER
JESTER STUFF ZU MACHEN, COME AT ME WORLD I SWEAR
